I wish to be the present husband.
I wish to be the present husband.
About people of my age speak: at all of them ahead. Here
Only I and many my friends, familiar we live at any deadlock,
From which it is not visible an exit. And we have got to it not on the
To ox.
To me 25 years, come from the regional centre. In due time has finished
School, TECHNICAL TRAINING COLLEGE, has received a speciality. Parents have started to build the house
For me, and the beloved nearby - to live yes to rejoice. And how?
Free of charge to work I do not presume, to drink and steal -
Too. Will not believe, I come now to settlement, such feeling, on
Cemetery has got - the life is not present: all is dead, deafly, hopelessly.
Do not think, that I complain - has simply become painful, us after all the such
It is a lot of.
And so, has moved to Ioshkar Ola, job has found quite good on
Specialities, has lodged in a hostel, however has then left -
The salary in time did not pay. And not one I already was, I has arrived
The girl. Wedding play till now we can not for the same reason -
There is no money. Parents at us pensioners. To us to them to help it would be necessary, and
It turns out on the contrary. Happens, will abruptly press, then it is necessary
To address to them. It is a shame! An eye to lift on mother I do not dare, when
I ask money.
I can not understand in any way why so develops in our life:
Someone has everything, and not putting any efforts, and to someone
It is necessary to climb from a skin, that though somehow to be kept. To people
Is more senior, I think, easier, they were in time in due time apartments
To receive, furniture to get, and we already "gostinki" have replaced three.
Every day we come back home and afraid, as from this us
"Will ask", it is necessary to reel up again circles on a city in searches
Any corner, it is desirable more cheaply.
We with the girlfriend (though I it the wife name for a long time) undertake any
Job. It on a speciality the seller, trades in the market, comes
Home got tired, frozen - postoj all the day long on a frost.
Well, the owner now at it another, appreciates its honesty and
Modesty. In shop job is, of course, purer, there is warmer and
More easy, but the wife is frightened by stories of girlfriends: a pier, the beginner there
Always "on a hook" put: month sticks, and in calculation still
Should remains.
I too do not sit on a place, I earn that on "extra work"
I go to Moscow, Kazan. Now already foremen know me,
Invite. And at first, when knew nothing and was not able, difficultly
Was. Somehow in Moscow we ploughed since morning till the night two months, without
Days off, and us "have then thrown", without remainder. Even on return
Road of money have not given, hardly the house have reached. I then four
Month from mother "disappeared" - language did not turn to it the truth
To tell.
Here and you run, you search where to earn additionally. To tell the truth,
Already some times criminal affairs suggested (the car to steal,
Wheels to remove), promising at once the big money. Yes only not in mine it
Rules: I wish to live fairly from anybody not to hide. Certainly,
Stars from heavens I do not suffice, but hands-feet to eat, work I am able and
I like, I hope, will consult.
However, now it is necessary more difficultly - the wife waits for the child. Not
Will believe, at the nights I can not fall asleep, the head swells from thoughts. Apartment
It would be necessary another? Yes. Diapers-baby's undershirts, a carriage, a bed - in
How much all will pour out?
It is impossible! Where how to earn on all it? It is not known. But
Most of all torments me one question: why in our state
The normal man not to contain a family in a status? I can and I want
It is a lot of to work, regularly to receive the salary, and my wife should
To sit at home, to be engaged in an economy, to bring up children. Unless it
Not by rules?
Has written down N.KULISHOVA.
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//* an information Source: Mari Truth/mary El, 24.01.01
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